Reignited and Restored: My why

I’ve been asked recently why I’ve started this blog. Why am I sharing my faith in God? What am I trying to gain by publicly sharing these things, especially since it seems out of character of who I have been? My simple answer is obedience. I have had a transformation (perhaps still being completed) and through that I have found that I enjoy expressing myself in writing. If my words can encourage someone else, then the effort was worth it.

I lived in sin, lies, deception, betrayal and had a lack of confidence in myself. I was afraid of peoples opinions and judgement. I was passive and apathetic. I allowed myself into situations that I never imagined. I was in a desperate place. I found myself at a crossroads; I could either fall deeper into the life I created or I could turn to the foundation and character God designed for me. Finding my Bible, a journal and daily prayer. I repented of the failures I have had, knowing that God was going to re-ignite and restore my life. I am not some “holier than tho” too good for you, church pew warmer. I’m just a guy that has seen God do great things and I want to share what I have learned. I’m flawed, I make mistakes but I am committed to be better than I was. I have faith in His promises for my life and future. 

 

So I offer a prayer that I prayed to get me to where I’m at: 

Heavenly Father, 

I surrender my life to you completely. I repent for the life of sin that I’ve lived; giving into the desires of my flesh and allowing the opinions of people mask your opinion of me. I stand before you asking, in repentance, for forgiveness and your grace and your mercy. Lord let me not return to my previous ways, but instead let me live as son of God according to your design and purpose for my life. 

Lord, in the name of Jesus, I break agreement with all strongholds of  immorality in my life. I will no longer conform to the ways of the world, but be transformed by renewing of my mind. I will no longer live in lies and deception in fear of what others may have to say about me because you approve of me. I break agreements with sadness, anger, bitterness, resentment, loneliness, and pride. Instead, I choose to live in the Fruit of the Spirit: love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, gentleness, faithfulness, and self-control. I believe in your promise for healing, forgiveness and restoration.

God, I believe in your perfect plan for my life, and I pray that you would reveal your vision of what that is, to me. My faith is in you. Overcoming the challenges in front of me is not something I can do on my own. Your word says that with man it’s impossible, but with God all things are possible. I may not be able to see the way forward. But you said; Now faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen. 

I know sin and temptation will try and re-enter my life. I know this change in me will not be immediately accepted. You said Submit yourselves, then, to God. Resist the devil, and he will flee from you. So I submit my life to you, God, in belief that you would be reflected in my character. My actions will demonstrate my obedience to you, because the Bible commands to be doers of the word, and not hearers only.

 

Lord, I thank you for reigniting and restoring me. In Jesus name I pray. Amen.